Lullaby

There's this song where the singer is telling the girl he's singing for that he worshipped her like a goddess but she, in turn, developed an attitude of arrogance. I feel the same is happening to me, the boy in question does not like texting and he's busy with work, not saying I'm not too busy for someone else but, knowing that some boy's love for me is never going to bear fruit, is the situation between this guy that I like and myself. Ever since I've started dating boys, I've been cheating, being an infidel. I am actually really commitment phobic although it doesn't show on the surface because it is obviously an internal problem and it's very difficult to get rid of. Maybe one day I'll like/love a man enough to not want other men if they show up on my radar.